Day #7 of my captivity:
I have to admit, when I awoke this morning my attitude was less than positive. My back hurt from being in the bed all day, my tv wasn't working and I just wanted to go home.
Well, after pulling myself out of bed to take a shower I somehow ripped my IV out of my hand gushing blood all over, it was less than fun. My morning just kept getting better. Then after that the nurse came in for my daily steroid butt shot.. Goodness that thing hurts!
After things calmed down I took a deep breath, opened my window (to see my lovely wall view) and just forced myself to stop my negative attitude .. I listed the pros of being where I'm at and started thanking God for putting me here with all these amazing doctors.
I sat down and looked at my cell, I had received the sweetest email from Drakes director at his school..she was genuinely concerned and wanted to know if I needed anything and that she and the whole school was praying for us. Wow, what a awesome thing. It's amazing when you shift your focus and attitude to a thankful heart the blessings come pouring in. Her email meant A lot to me at that moment. I'm so thankful I'm able to send my son to a Christian school where he is loved and truly cared for. That peace of mind is priceless.
Last night I went for my nightly ultrasound and as always I held my breath a little. My eyes always seem to dart straight toward the two little hearts on the screen, seeing them beat is priceless and comforting.
Well normally these babies are ninjas, constantly moving, kicking, punching & rolling around. But as I watched baby A (Quinn) he seemed calm and still . Owen on the other hand was going insane flipping, flopping and being the mini Michael I know he's going to be.
I began to ask why he wasn't moving and why he was so calm? Apparently one of the reactions from the steroid shot for the lungs can cause the babies to "slow down" in movement.. I'm not so thrilled with that and maybe that's where some of my negative attitude came from this morning. But as long as those hearts keep thumping then I have no reason not to be a happy and thankful mama.
Also they offer "craft time" here so I participated in that also.