On 11/3/12 at 9:45am at 26w3d pregnant, I was told by my tear filled Doctor that Quinn didn't make it. My world stopped spinning for that moment in time. Shock. Heart break.

After a all night battle to find his heart beat and to keep it steady on a monitor, we lost him. He passed due to cord entanglement.

There are so many questions unanswered and so many "what ifs?" But, In some way my heart is at peace.

God gave me this baby to love and to cherish, I did exactly that. God tested my faith and is still doing so. I won't be angry and or bitter. Yes, my heart breaks and breaks for my Husband. But, I know I will see him again someday soon. I'll never have the answers and I'm okay with that. I'm looking forward and thankful for the past. He was the best dream I ever had. And being his mommy was the biggest blessing even for a short time.

They gave me the option to deliver but due to the heart surgery that Owen needs it would be 100% fatality within hours after birth. I've decided to follow through and continue like normal in this pregnancy and hopefully go as far as I can so, that Owen has a fighting chance. There is still risk of Owen entangling but, of course they aren't as high. I requested to go home and be released from bed rest. I'm not going to monitor Owen constantly in the hospital. Instead, I'm going to go to weekly ultrasounds to check on him and make sure he's still ok. What's meant to be will be. God is still in control and always has been since day one.

Galatians 1:15